SUB has found the best seat in the house…

I few months ago I splurged on this beauty.  And was more than a bit distraught when the handle broke in two a few months later.  I hobbled it around for a bit longer, thinking that I would have to just save up for a new one, but then decided to contact making memories to see what they could do.  They told me to just ship it back and they would send me a replacement. I got my new tote in the mail this morning, and it is even more beautiful than I remember it. (and that’s not just because I haven’t been able to crop for 2 weeks waiting for it to come in..)  They even threw in a bunch of goodies for my trouble!  Some of it is flowery and girly, but I think my all-boy book could use a couple flowers now and again and still be ok.

It was calling my name at Target…plus it was on sale.  So how can a girl resist?

It’s yet another overcast dreary day (it has been this way for over a week now) and I had to get out of the house.  Super-daddy is working…and if I have to pry SUB out of the tupperware cabinet one more time because he has wedged himself in there the wrong way, I may just go crazy.  So I loaded up the car and headed to Target.  Not as dangerous to my pocketbook as wal-mart, and I am a big fan of the $1 bins.

The dollar bins turned out to be a bust- though I did score a "cool" cowboy sun hat for me.  Will I ever wear it?  Who knows, but it was a buck, so it’s not that big of a loss if I feel that I can’t pull the look off. SUB was great though- we went through the aisles and he babbled on and on and played with various things that I threw in the basket.  It was peaceful even….so we decided to end the day out with some lunch in the target food court.

We split an individual cheese pizza, and the entire time SUB was staring at this cute little girl one table over.  She giggled and ate her cheese pizza, while SUB layed it on thick trying to impress her.  The little girls mom went on and on about SUB’s pretty eyes and how she just wanted to pinch his little cheeks, and we shared a little small talk about how this weather is really making our toddlers go stir-crazy.  After a bit she left, and it was just the baby and I in the target/starbucks dining area.  An older woman, who looked to be about 35 or so, came by to wipe the tables off.  She came over and pinched SUB cheeks (everyone does it) and then starting on about how she loves her kids, but she really regrets not getting her education.  She doesn’t want her kids to be stuck working at Target for the rest of their lives, like she is.  She said she did everything right- she put her hubby through college, watched her kids grow and taught them well, and now everyone has moved on to better things but her.  It made me sad… I know that is the same story heard time and time again, and I just happen to have the aura that others think they can open up to me within minutes of us meeting. 

It made me realize how blessed I am to have a career, an education, and of course my beautiful SUB.  I think there is a certain point where you have to do things for you, in order to be a better parent to your kids.  I know that college and traditional education aren’t for everyone, but I think that if you can swing it, it really does send a message to your kids about education being important.  And when they whine that they can’t hack it- you can say B.S.!  It took me 8 years to get my degree, while having 2 jobs and raising you- "I can’t" isn’t in my vocabulary! So if anybody out there is on the fence about taking a class, starting up a side business, or taking on a new hobby.  You really have to just go for it.  You don’t want to be that lady at Target wiping down tables, regretting the choices that you made. 

As you all know, my main struggle is my weight.  Clothing sizes aside, I really want to be healthy for SUB.  I want him to be proud of me, and I want to be there for him until the ripe old age of 100.  I have an appointment with a doctor in July to make sure that everything is up to snuff health-wise.  I am going to get a refill on my meds, and find out if there is anything else that I need to be doing to keep things in check.  So far I am about 40-45 pounds down on the scale, which I am really starting to notice.  I have also set some mini-goals of "pampering" to further keep me motivated.  Here is the plan:

50 lbs lost - I am going to go get my hair cut and highlighted by a professional.  I am the queen of super-cuts, so this is a big deal for me. And this goal is only a few weeks away, so that has me excited.

60 lbs lost- I am going to get a pedicure

75 lbs lost- I am going to treat myself to some new glasses.  I am thinking frameless, bendable titanium so SUB can’t break them.

85 lbs lost- another pedicure

100 lbs lost- a new wardrobe (which will be desperatly needed by that point!)

And then I would be at my target weight.  Now it’s not my ideal, textbook weight but it is what is good for me and my bone structure.  So I would be perfectly happy with it!