At first I hated it…I was a hardcore Myspace fan.  But lately the constant error messages had me considering Facebook.  After a bit of playing tonight, I may just use it more often.  Of course that leads me to only one problem….

I have no friends!  So if you have Facebook, feel free to add me.

My Myspace page is officially pimped out (yes…i’m white and nerdy…) and now I need some friends!  Please check me out and add me to your Myspace friends list.

So the child is crawling up the walls today and I don’t have time for a proper post, so I am just going to give you one of those lovely myspace bulletions. Enjoy!

1. What does your MySpace headline mean?
It fit my tie dye theme…

2. Elaborate on your default photo:
I loved the outfit he was in, so we had a little mini photo shoot. The kiddo rolled around on the couch striking poses and cheesin it up for the camera.

3. Who was the last person to make you smile?
Jackson- he has been a giggling fool the past couple of days. Last night we stayed out way to late having dinner, and he was slap happy. Everything made him crack up.

4. What’s your current relationship status?
Happily Married

5. What EXACTLY are you wearing right now?
A nightgown

6. What is your current problem?
I would like to go back to bed!

7. What do you love most?
My family

8. What makes you most happy?
My boys

9. Are you musically inclined?
I can’t play anything, but I can dance, or at least I used to be really good at it.

10. If you could go back in time, and change something, what?
I would have finished college sooner, and maybe done it for cheaper.

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?
one of my dogs, they live in the lap of luxury. Lazy bums.

12. Ever have a near death experience?
I felt like it when I had my c-section, but that was more of his near death experience than mine.

13. What did you do last night?
Went to visit my mom and then had dinner at Jims at 11 at night.

14. What’s the name of the song that’s stuck in your head right now?
I don’t know the name of it…”I want a brand new house on an episode of cribs, and a bathroom that I can play baseball in, and a hot tub big enough for ten plus me…tell me what you wanna do…” or something…

15. Who did you cut and paste this from?
Jera

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Megan is a day off from me

17. Have you ever vandalized someone’s private property?
Yup- don’t mess with me!

18. Have you ever been in a fight?
Just verbal sparring, I will use my jedi mind tricks on ya.

19. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
Not sang, talked yet…

20. What are you doing tonight?
Going to a Girls Night In

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
I have never been to a starbucks- EVER. I am the last person on the planet to be able to say that I think.

22. Do you have a crush on anybody?
yes…my husband. (was that the right answer?)

23. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
Nope

24. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
I don’t think so

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Of course. Spongebob rules!

26. Did you have braces?
for 4 long years

27. are you comfortable with your height?
I could stand to be taller, I would just like to reach stuff in my cabinets.

28. When was the last time you spent the night somewhere?
When I was pregnant and didn’t want to drive to doctors appts out of town, I would stay with my mom

29. Do you speak any other languages?
I can cuss in Spanish, does that count?

30. Whats your favorite smell?
Freshly washed baby, hands down.

So today for the first time in a long time, I logged into Myspace. Now I “log in” all the time to check my messages or read my comments, but I never actually “log on” where you spend an hour just reading profiles and surfing around getting sucked into the vortex that is myspace. And the entire exercise made me a little sad.

There are a dozen or so ladies that are in my playgroup that I have on my myspace buddy list, and I went to respond to one, and then I get caught up in this back and forth banter between the group about random things. So and so wanting to know about something, then someone said “Great seeing you yesterday at playgroup…” yada, yada, yada…But then it struck me- nobody has said anything to me in like a week? So then, I get that sinking feeling like I am back in high school and wishing that I was sitting at the “cool table” at lunch. I am almost 27 years old- I am too old for this kind of thinking!
Now, don’t get me wrong, from the moment that I logged into myspace there was a little voice in my head whispering…

“You’re too damn old for this!”

But yet, I proceeded to set up my myspace page and even spent the effort making it look all snazzy. I was hooked in the beginning. I sent comments to everyone on a daily basis, and was the model myspacer. I read all the bulletins, and told everyone “100 random things about me” on a daily basis. But then, I got busy. The baby started teething, my work load picked up, I moved, and suddenly I dropped off the myspace map. And apparently, if you stop sending your myspace friends random “WAZ UP” comments, they move on to someone else that will fill up their comment boxes with sparkly goodness.

So then my myspace sadness was then filled with something else…my underlying need for a real local friendship. (I have one or two great friends that live elsewhere, But you can’t come hang over on a random thursday afternoon…) Not the cosmetic-myspace friendships- I have 100 some odd people on my myspace list, but how many of them know when my birthday is? Maybe 5.

Now in my old age (ok I am not that old, but I feel it sometimes), my criteria for a friend has changed considerably. I am not cool- by any stretch of the imagination. Don’t invite me to go clubbing with you, cause I am not that kind of girl. I stay home alot, I hang out with my kid and my husband. If you want to come over for dinner, maybe rent a movie, and let the kids play then I am your gal. I will talk to you about things that matter (at least to us) and I am the girl to come to if you are having a problem with your husband, or need advice on something. I love to have meaningful conversations. I tend to be shy at first- which is becoming more apparent now that I am a mommy. I think there is only so much attention sucking that can go on in a family dynamic- and with an outgoing husband, and an outgoing kid someone has to be in the background keeping things together…)

Now that we are a family- it’s harder to find friends I think. Because everyone is involved now. Is it too much to want a friend who has a hubby that may hang out with mine on occasion and play some video games? Or someone with a kid that will play with mine? And then of course someone that is willing to put up with me?

Baby is up from his nap- so my ponderings must end for now…just wanted to share my thoughts on the ol might myspace….